My scrapbook/memoir follows the highlights of my life from being the youngest born in a family of twenty children, to returning home after many years of self destruction and healing, to discover a family still very much mired in the dark past. The years between were filled with abuse, depression, heart wrenching losses, addiction, and a literal ton of self loathing. I will never say it was worth going through to get to where I am today; I will say, however, that the person I am now, I could not have become by any other avenue.