This book started out to be an autobiography based on the happenings in my life but quickly started to convert into a real life lab study on the acts that surround making poor choices. My experience, training, and endless conversations with others, granted me all the empirical data I needed to organize my thoughts around what a life of making poor judgments is all about. It's about those people who were victims and them finding out why they were victims, perpetrators and the endless cycle of remorse they feel, confusion that blankets a child's life when adult topics are introduced through conversation or other abuses at an inappropriate age. It's about me recording all my thoughts and the troublesome spots in my life and how that relates to others who are confused about who they were, more importantly who they believe that they are. These idiosyncrasies are the start of a Core Defense bulge. When you accept life with one of these bulges, it becomes increasing easier to accept a second in order to cover over the previous bulge and ultimately protect yourself from exposure. Any deviation leads to a broken Core but we don't see that because we are able to juggle every out-of-place aspect surrounding the deviation, thinking we are doing something good but we are simply emulating what a solid Core Defense Mechanism looks like, in short we are living a fraudulent lifestyle. These "instructors" are manipulated into these roles by the Psychopathic and Narcissistic liar in order to control everything about you and put excess, what these predators view as "due pressure" on you to conform to their tactics. The purpose of this process is defined today as something called "Gaslighting", where they try to break your spirit into being absolutely compliant to their wishes.