Robert Boyd, a successful management consultant, sells his business for a large sum of money.

He soon realizes that even with all the money he has received, he is not happy and does not feel fulfilled. He withdraws a million dollars from the bank and decides to leave for Europe to find himself. He leaves three letters as he leaves. One is to his wife and the others are to two mistresses. We soon find that his life is a tangled web of deception. The book flashes back to his relationship with his wife and the two other women and is interwoven with adventures involving new women and new deception on his trip to Europe. It delves deep into his thoughts and deep into a man that really has not found his way. He knows that he has trouble dealing with women and alcohol and cannot find a way to stop. The book winds toward the climax of his trip and in an epilogue, takes us from 1985 to the present.