He was not a stallion, and he was not a hero. He knew that if he was hungry, he would eat, and if he was thirsty, he would drink. In order to pursue a better life, he had no choice but to work hard to earn money and improve himself. Desire allowed him to improve continuously, but he wanted to subdue his desire until his goal became simple and straightforward: "To achieve this goal, one must kill God, one must kill Buddha.