The story of a mother's journey through inconsolable grief after the death of her teenage son. Powerfully written, it's an eloquent reminder that our hold on life is tenuous, and communication, love and togetherness are the key to surviving such a tragedy. As seen on Australian Story Christopher was seventeen and had everything to live for. He was smart, charismatic, loving, and deeply loved, and a champion rugby player. Yet he was struggling. Diagnosed a year earlier with depression and severe anxiety, he hid his fears from family and friends. Finally, Christopher chose to stop fighting. This is the story of Christopher's shocking death and its tragic aftermath for the family. It is also the story of a mother and father's love, and their determination not to lose another son to the temptation of taking his own life. Honest, raw, and deeply moving, Jayne's account brings to life the visceral experience of grief and the long, painful journey towards finding meaning in life again. This is compelling and inspirational reading for anyone affected by the death of a young person. 'The cruellest loss in the world is the death of a child, no matter what their age. This is a fine and moving book about a mother's difficult path to finding meaning in life again after the loss of her child.' - Anne Deveson, author of Tell Me I'm Here 'Her journey through grief is enveloping, harrowing, even excruciating at times, at others poignant and revealing.' - Mal McKissock, author of Coping with Grief