In this candid and moving memoir, John W. Evans articulates the complicated joys of falling in love again as a young widower. Though heartbroken after his wife's violent death, Evans realizes that he cannot remain inconsolable and adrift, living with his in-laws in Indiana. Motivated by a small red X on a map, Evans musters the courage for a cross-country trip. From the Badlands to Yellowstone to the foothills of the Sierra Mountains, Evans's hope and determination propel him even as he contemplates his vulnerability and the legacy of a terrible tragedy. Should I Still Wish chronicles Evans's efforts to leave an intense year of grief behind, to make peace with the natural world again, and to reconnect with a woman who promises, like San Francisco itself, a life of abundance and charm. With unflinching honesty Evans plumbs the uncertainties, doubts, and contradictions of a paradoxical experience in this love story, celebration of fatherhood, meditation on the afterlife of grief and resilience, and, ultimately, showcase for life's many profound incongruities"--
Carol Reed is one of the truly outstanding directors of British cinema, and one whose work is long overdue for reconsideration. This major study ranges over Reed’s entire career, combining observation of general trends and patterns with detailed analysis of twenty films, both acknowledged masterpieces and lesser-known works. Evans avoids a simplistic auteurist approach, placing the films in their autobiographical, socio-political and cultural contexts and relating these to the analysis of Reed’s art. The critical approach combines psychoanalysis, gender theory, and the analysis of form. Archival research is also relied on to clarify Reed’s relations with his creative team, financial backers and others. Films examined include Bank Holiday, A Girl Must Live, Odd Man Out, The Fallen Idol, The Third Man, Night Train to Munich, The Way Ahead, Outcast of the Islands, Trapeze and Oliver!.
John W. Evans was twenty-nine years old and his wife, Katie, was thirty. They had met in the Peace Corps in Bangladesh, taught in Chicago, studied in Miami, and were working for a year in Romania when they set off with friends to hike into the Carpathian Mountains. In an instant their life together was shattered. Katie became separated from the group. When Evans finally found her, he could only watch helplessly as she was mauled to death by a brown bear. In such a love story, such a life story, how could a person ever move forward? That is the question Evans, traumatized and restless, confronts in this book as he learns the language of grief, the rhetoric of survival, and the contrary algorithms of holding fast and letting go. His memories of Katie and their time together, and the strangeness of his life with her family in the year after her death, create an unsentimental but deeply moving picture of loss, the brutality of nature, and the unfairness of needing to narrate a story that nothing can prepare a person to tell. Told with unyielding witness, elegance, and care, Young Widower is a heartbreaking account of a senseless tragedy and the persistence of grief in a young person’s life.
Although Evans and Christenberry share many of the same subjects and concerns, there is a dramatic difference to the meaning of their work. Evans photographed a culture in a state of economic and spiritual crisis, while Christenberry's photographs are more like traces of timeless, mysterious forces.
It is universally acknowledged that a good person in possession of a small or large fortune will often be parted from it.There is a spine-chilling resemblance to the praying mantis in human behaviour. The mantis waits for its prey, then quickly dispatches it. The female often eats its mate during or after copulation in sexual cannibalism. Humans don't eat each other but devour through envy, greed, blackmail and extortion. Either sex, like the mantis, preys. This book is classed as fiction but the human interaction is taken from real life experiences. Hatred, seeking revenge, is dramatised.You will see how incidents play out. Anybody could be standing innocently on the edge of a pending disaster not realising it. Your partner could have designs you never dreamt off. Don't be a victim. Protect your mind body and soul not forgetting your wallet. If you get wounded you will live with it forever.William Evans, now under 'witness protection' arrives in Sydney, Australia, as John Williams. He reads a warning but pays no heed becoming welcome bait for the mantis syndrome.Nothing is sacred when the syndrome has you in sight. It's usually too late. What's left of your carcass is fought over by lawyers, accountants and bank managers. All want their pound of any remaining flesh becoming richer at your expense.John Williams still believed in honour. His word is his bond often sealed with a hand shake. I suggest in today's cyber digital world Honour is a relic of ages past. Somebody always wants what you have.Don't become a victim of the Syndrome. Note the warning signs. Learn how to interpret them. A mantis could be sat beside you on a flight, or where you work, at a party, or a recent lover plotting to entrap you. Once snared you are doomed. Don't let it happen. Read on to protect yourself.Life is short. A mantis will make it seem an eternity.
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